Eli

My name is Eli, I'm 18 years old, and probably not many people would understand what lies behind my height of just 150 cm. Since childhood, I’ve had to get used to the fact that the world around me always seemed a little bigger than I am. I have poor vision, and it’s always been hard for me to make out details from a distance. But that doesn’t stop me from moving forward.
I speak English quite confidently — it’s probably one of my strong points. I really love the language and am even learning a bit of French, although so far I only know a few phrases. I've always dreamed of visiting London, to see the city I've heard so much about. I imagined myself walking through its streets, enjoying the atmosphere there, and maybe even learning the language a little better.
When i was in school, I dreamed of becoming a nurse. I’ve always loved taking care of people, helping them when they’re not well. But unfortunately, life didn’t go as planned, and that dream remains just a dream. I couldn’t get into medical college — too many obstacles and challenges in my way. I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’ve always wanted to be useful, to do something meaningful for others.
My home isn’t the wealthiest. My father is ill, and often he doesn’t have the strength to work. The weight of everything rests on my grandmother’s shoulders. She is my guardian angel, the one who took care of me since I was little, when my parents couldn’t provide me with everything I deserved. My grandmother is a strong woman, but it’s becoming harder for her to handle everything. She works two jobs to feed us, and I feel like I need to help her as much as I can.
I never had a mother. This is a topic I’d rather not talk about. I don’t think anyone around me understands how I feel. It’s not easy, and I often ask myself what things would have been like if my mother had been around. But I try not to dwell on the past and focus on what’s ahead. Right now, all I can do is take care of what I have and work towards making things better.
Recently, I decided to try something new, to step out of my comfort zone. I decided to try working on a site called Chaturbate. I know this might seem strange to many, but I have my reasons. I love talking to people, I enjoy being in the spotlight, and I’m confident I can create a positive atmosphere for others. I need to earn money to help my grandmother and support my father. It’s hard, but I know that my efforts can make her life easier, and that’s important to me.
I understand that there might be a lot of judgment and questions, but I’m confident in my decision. I want to be independent, to give my grandmother a chance to rest a little and not worry so much. I know I need to try something new to move forward and make my life, and the lives of my loved ones, better. And maybe one day I’ll finally get to visit London, see the world I’ve heard so much about, and maybe even change my life for the better.